Bear's Diary

"You show me the world, but I'm hoping for heaven " ,  because of that I personally assume how greedy I am about you also, because of that I analyze that the world prefer show its reality than actualize my fantasy I know how realistic you are also, I know how irrational I am I have no clue about the law of nature, especially anything about us  More I try for equalizing,  the more I'm comparing my self with you And at the end, I always got the negative Sorry,  that maybe you tired of compliments but, you know I won't say bad things about you Sorry, if the word 'sorry' often take a part in every chance Sorry, that in here, I'm comparing us.                                                   - yourbear

[ From my new diary at 21st of September, at the beginning page ] So thankful that God still give me breath here, and also for my family, thanks for everything. I would like to say that I'm glad to be here, I mean in this world, though sometimes maybe I feel like dissappoint, afraid, worry, etc. But yeah, still. I'm glad. To my yesterdays self, thanks for did your best. I appreciate for that. Every things that happen in the past, for the best moments, I will save to be memories in mind, and if not the best, but if that moments ever tried to push for the better version of me, with pleasure that I also save that as memories. I don't know about the point of this paragraph, but I just write what I think and what I want. Today, is not so special, same as usual. Every days that I've been through, and I will, no matter what happened and will, I'm okay with that.   Tomorrow, is kinda mysterious. And maybe you know, that one of my biggest fear is "future" that kind...