Bear's Diary

We never met before,  We just knowing each other We never near before, We just getting close but not distance We have each other space that all people do, We have each other problems that all people have, We were never different by those Oh well, sorry if i say “we” instead “you and i” , ‘cuz somehow i just feel like i have ever known you before we actually did the introduction to each other that day I remember some of the things that you ever said, clearly for some also blurry for some I guess you start getting tired to answer my unstopping questions I guess you want a peace space that you think you will find that by giving me the distance You told me that i have to be patient, but like seriously i will asking “What will I get by that?” is that worth trying? I mean, I am a patient person before and I guess I always do for some cases Didn’t mean to overreact, ‘cuz I just expressing my self Again, and again just expressing. Maybe.

You lost your energy when you’re with me You lost your self when you’re with me I’m so down sorry if those are true I might be selfish for always telling you my stories I might be selfish for always telling you my problems I’m so down sorry if those are disturbing you You never wrong for leaving when you need time for yourself, never So, sorry again if I ever push you to take care of me when you’re not fine enough for your own self But seriously, if you could just tell me what you want me to do, I might voluntarily doing that for our sake, for your convenience and mine I don’t know why you got me like this, but maybe  it is just myself that wanna be like this while knowing you Hoping you will find your whole and fine enough to yourself first, then please reach me ‘Cuz I’m naturally waiting right here.

Totally want to have a true relationship, within all of the good and all of the bad ‘cuz I know anything comes with those two In a moment I am in right know, in our space when both you and I trying to know each other more deeper than yesterday I’m drowning by my own, from your words and your actions that had ever said and did right before we got this far I might be too much and I know that, but you never complaint anything rather just respond for something that you got from me I’m not a seer, that would know every thing you want to say or do to me or something that you want to tell but you just choose not I wish you give me feedback that I could evaluate my self and try to be better for you, I would voluntarily do that with pleasure if you want  I have you but feels like I have none,  I’m with you but feels like I’m just with my self, When something is related to you is just in my mind  You stay, but you kinda makes me hanging It is so damn true that I’m feeling it in my ...

This city still feels empty, and I guess this heart too I’m going forward looking for someone, to talk to and help me feel less lonely I found you when I didn’t looking for title or relationship ahead But you got me stuck here, frozen in a moment in our space that you just come and go as you wish Everyone is busy, so you are And here I am, seem to be carefree without anything to do Just so you know, you take over me here I tried to tell you twice but you never read and replied I’m feeling anxious here, and I know that you also knowing that But please, can you just give me reassurance? Say anything like you ever said before Do anything like you ever did before I’m so down missing that Please, this sound of you right now kinda make me hopeless and give up Tell me much reasons to stay please, I’m begging I totally don’t want to leave you.