Bear's Diary

Rather than thinking you'll never find out my writings about you, Honestly I'd choose to never hiding at a place that not yours I'm hating myself from creating secrets day by day And still doing nothing about what the heart really want It took me so long for actually saying this I seriously have much reasons for not talking about you But my own self doing the opposite and leading me to you I don't know untill when I would say something like this Wish that you would pardon me about all the talks I ever wrote.                        - yourbear

Rarely open the pages in that book, Fill with papers that help, when self felt a bit of being ignored from days, when self felt that really miss him, when self wanna express from inside That book, that papers which is waiting for me to keep writing there Sorry, for being far and not touching you so often like I used to Rarely open the pages in that book, Instead I'm visiting a note in my phone Rather than I just write some there, I choose for typing here  Rather than say sorry, I'll say, I'll come again. Soon.                        - yourbear

About feeling towards you, I know that are only in my head But I don't want to At one moment of time, in a situation that so real The words "I love you" only a history that left behind in me I mean, I'm afraid Where a situation that so much real I might forgot that I ever loved you Be real and there for me, though not you though not loving each other though only one sided love , maybe I won't care Because, at that phase I learn dozens about life Thanks for helping me about new feelings I called it a destiny, that I met you and fall in love with you.                       - yourbear

Just let me create another world, here by writing Much of wants aren't always be the same visually Much of imaginations aren't often be real Having so much ideas inside the head sometimes  makes me crawling a space for Overthinking is bad, as the others said  The source of the thoughts are countless,  so the topics are I'll writing more, 'bout everything  There is no limit here I'll travel beyond                     - yourbear

I have nightmares recently, so I get rain, often That so bad, and I couldn't  for searching the meaning  I know nothing, and think nothing about the escape, after feel being chased So, I was directed to remember again All about you for the very first you got me Without you by this time is kinda my lost I know you know, I never taste a victory if it related to you I don't know why, seriously How all of this kind of, are always leading me to rely on you. So, I still got no way out But instead I got you, again.                         - yourbear

Who is the controller of mind? I guess I put the input too much  I guess I think too much It could be sweet, mysterious and sometimes could be criminal  It could be positives and negatives It could be ups and downs How its actually work? How its role? How its functions? It could having a conversation,  talking by mouth but actually just in head Often, such as writing like this Will get thousand questions that some of them form unanswered questions and retoric Ever, at some moment I hate for having the thoughts too much.                       - yourbear

He loves art, I'll do He loves writing, I'll do He loves music, I'll do He loves serenity, I'll do He loves night, I'll do He loves a bear emoticon, I'll do So many things he loves, I'll do the same That's how the taste someone you like could influence you.                       - yourfan

What's your reason for doing that? Trying to get a thing that you used to? We're already far since those goodbye that never been spoken  We're already far since these distance that always grow in between Thought my brain is already forget, Thought my feeling is already faded away What's your reason? You know, I'll do about what you have done So if you done nothing, I would also do the same But, if for the time ahead and for a one moment you'll say I have to comeback about us I would like to apologize first, 'cuz I'm not so sure about feeling by the days ahead I know, I said everything about us before maybe all of my words are almost about us But, I couldn't guarantee you for something that so relative by time Just quickly tell me your reason for doing that 'Cuz I'm so inconstant, 'Cuz I need much sure by things, eventhough often doubt at everything I do.                      - yourbear

I didn't write for the first day of this month, I was hope to, but its just turn out that I forgot Life is unpredictable, as well it is, right? At some point,  I thought my life was not really could be said as lucky The one and only of the aspects is still me But, at many points I thought I lucky enough, for all I have around My view is so opposite, So what I have to believe? ..... I've never been good, But always try for doing nice and think positively The bad thoughts are absolutely bad for mind and heart, right?                        - yourbear