Bear's Diary

….. What I got recently about the big bad thing that happening, is that I thought people there are so precious, each one of them. I totally no one and rarely speaking up about what’s actually happening. But looking at every posts and news about that thing is totally breaking my heart. Even when we aren’t talk about the sympathy, that thing is so much bad. Even when we aren’t talk about the religius thing, that thing is also much more like killing the humanity. I don’t know the exact root cause of those. But looking at what’s really happening kinda making me focus on the that bad output. Just so damn disrespectful. Right? Isn’t it good to be at peace? Are’nt there another way if they really have problem with each other? I mean. Because being in peace are always every people’s hope, I guess. The victims aren’t only one. But even one victim’s for something like that is actually won’t be nice to see. I wish I could help them with all I have. But when all I have is a voice, I would voicing ...

Every second time of mine, People are always around Kinda realizing that I need them At every second time of mine When I’m down and no one around, Silently sit at my space, Actually I listening for some voices which comes from people too When I’m drowning and being lock in the damn thoughts, Actually the shadow of someone’s trying to distract and calm me down When I’m so desperate at some moments and kinda create the bad views about the situation, Actually the others are trying to reach me, hold me and speak to me Some people are so freaking nice, Especially the people around me. - .... I have million thoughts inside if I have to say about my people. And almost of the thoughts are about how grateful I am for being around them. Often saying that I’m so happy that they are all exist around. Its so true. I wanna show them care and love. Really. But for a person like me, its still that hard for being transparant.

What you have done? How you easily come in when I’m so good for closing all the doors? How are you being this good enough to throw all the other keys? What I have done? How I easily let you in when I’m that good for rejecting the other? How I’m being that good for accepting you in?                       - yourbear