Bear's Diary

The honesty about me as a thinker? , I always get much thoughts , I always create much assumptions So so honest, that most of them are about you Never thought I would be this dramatic? There are much scenes that have been taking over mind About you that would comethru and calling my name, About a promise that you wouldn't leave no more It's still you, and still with you I'm feeling the heartbeat I'm crawling for love I guess the never ending letters to you are still going on Sometimes by paper, and sometimes by screen I guess I would need more time, when the deep heart told me that I must telling you But I guess I would respond immediately if you choose to come  I just visited our hour, but you never showed up  I just went back and forth, but still couldn't see you Other than a longing, What I should called this? This writing isn't a poem, This writing is a letter to you that I would send through the moments we ever had You wouldn't reply this, I know But st...

When I really wanna disapper, How about the people that holding me? When I really wanna give up, How about the hopes that people have for me? When I really wanna ignore all the sadness, How about the happiness after that already wait for me? Sitting alone in my bed, is just my thing All those criminal thoughts come and brutally try to drain me, are actually one of my thing too I won't win for this, I know So, just please tell me how to relax and minimize all of these.... My breath's feel heavy right now, also my shoulders My mind condition's in a mess, also my soul Wanna be by your side right know, honestly. Wanna be by  my people side, my home.                        - yourbear

Unlike the rubber band, I only taking you in a soul that always wanna be yours But like the rubber band, I'm being pulled multiple times in our own zone and much things about us When you did nothing, but in the same time a person's influenced by you You still clueless, but in the same time she's going so far Like a lockbox, I hope you'll know someday About a heart that have been living for the old moments  I don't know about how many times I enjoy the present time 'Cuz almost all of the time, l only saw the past.                        - yourbear

How is it possible? When only some seconds time for one clip video could touch your soul beautifully? I am at wonder, when its about how much things are comes to us and give us such a sight  I wish I would be that person, who could see something at their pretty things and throwing all the bads In this imperfection, even not always so good, I just wish all I see could be come positive, even it would be happen after.                                                    - yourbear