Bear's Diary

I'm 22 now, The time always passing by so fast Without goodbye we're still apart Without permission, we're a thing that I always imagine The reality are so much scary to my soul, even The musics are so much loud to my ears "What you've been up to?" is one of my basic questions  "Do you remembering me, even maybe just for a few second?" is one of my priority questions I've been asking my self, that Am I still loving you? or Am I just loving about my feelings towards you?                       - yourbear

Don't know about the struggles you've been going trough and facing, but I kinda wonder Are those struggles harder than mine? or Are we having the same struggles to faced even the aspects are so different? There is a wall between us, and I know I won't never entering your land Though my words always crossing the line, that often try to reach you  We have our own reality Happines is always my only praying letters to you We always so far by distance, But I feel like we're closer than we never expected Remembering about the words that said "If you adore people, just adore them and never expect them to be next to you"  So, I'll be here Watching you grow more higher and bigger beyond the world Because you're pretty deserves for every thing. #To all my bias in kpop.                        - yourfan

With pleasure, I tell you all about this.... ………………… I like the rains and the nights. People looks like they see me silent and quiet. I only say the lines inside and never mouthing them. I was born to be different, even though I always try equalizing. Sometimes life is easy and hard, also is up and down. Often feel burden by those, and wanna give up.  I know you know, that someone is supposed to have someone behind or beside.  Maybe I just forgot about the first time when I opened my eyes and saw the world. But the memories and feelings that are so wonderfull to be forgetten never slip away to take a part in me.  Maybe I never say anything about this before.  Family? Yes. Them. Family. I mean my family. They are so kind towards me. Understanding me without being ask for understanding them back. Loving me sincerily without being ask for loving them back. But I'll always try to pay them in return. Its very good. Perfect. That they are my family. I'm so thankful for hav...

May I ask you something?.... If by any chance you have time, would you like to be my comfort place? I mean, a place that will accept me when I come in I mean, a place that will allow me to depend on it There's nothing I'm afraid of, than afraiding the afraid itself There's nothing I doubt, than doubting the doubt itself So I need someone, I do  So I need you, I really do I want you to be my comfort place, and I need you to be my comfort place.                       - yourbear

Sorry, that I just realizing now Much things are going through around 'till this day, I saw million stars and listening much lullaby Recently, I'm visiting you more often  Its nostalgic and got me feeling love again Recently, I'm hearing your songs more often Its nostalgic and got me feeling love again Sorry, for coming back so late I see no real stars anywhere without you Because you all are my only 7 stars. 7 stars that are light it up my darkness 7 stars that are light it up my universe You all taught me a thousand million pretty lessons For showing your world, sharing your every things, and telling your stories I'm so glad that I didn't late for experiencing that You all are shine so bright from afar me,  Yesterday, today and then I believe that you all are will still shine Forever For every things you do which are blind from my sight through a screen I hope you do every things you want and always find happines in between For coming to me by that day, thanks And...

I read many poems, and some quotes I got the meaning and some questions Hoping I would have some kinda inspiration But got nothing than fighting between the heart and the brain Maybe your existence is just your time to show up a while in my life But I would voluntarily telling you why you have such a special place here You used to be my keyword at every chance, Even when I'm kinda tired thinking about you in every poems You used to be my keyword at every chance, Even when I finished deciding the topic isn't discussing  you When your responds are just responds, but I missunderstood them as a sign I would like to cancel all my writing about you But you know, it would never change and still remain the same as it used to be  Even when you try to deny, even when I try to deny.                                                      - yourbear

Its unfair to compare us, right? When my days are full of darkness and hidin' from the sun When your days are so shiny and full of expression based on your true self Its unfair to compare us, right? When all I hear are just the musics that are only be your lonely friend When all you do are having interactions with people and learn much lesson about what's goin' on outside If there are so much differents between us, Am I have a chance for having a little same thing with you? I hate being different Eventhough I often classified the things around  I hate being different But I've no idea about how to be the same as you.                    - yourbear

Your songs are my comfort and safety space You've never been asking me but I always come over by your songs side I found you there, Talking to me by your voice Guiding me by the lyrics Comforting me by the meaning Its rhythmic and melodic I always fall in love over and over You always been good, with all the things around.                         - yourfan

... Its a place that every body living Its a place that consume me more Its a place that I've been thinking and doing  Feeling like ever living there for some times ago Its a place that frequently hit me so hard In the other definition for me, Its a condition when my world suddenly disappear because its taken away somewhere Its a condition that frequently force me to be in Feeling like openly let me come, but also denying about who I am  It maybe sounds so rude, but its true yeah because its only for me, well because I don't know about yours, right? I know I have to keep the balance about those place with mine In my place its all about dreaming But in those place its make me to stop dreaming You know what I mean, right? I've been wondering around how to deal with it but I got no answers, and always got questions the whole time My lines are getting longer here, right? though the meaning just for one topic.                     - ...