Bear's Diary

I wanna give you love. A fully love. Transparent and visible. That you could hold and see trough. That would bring you to a place that you desired. That would telling you soon about how’s life going. And much more things that you could touch. I wanna show you love. A beautiful love. Like a rainbow and green scenery. That you could see repeatly and still in awe every time you see it. That would be the photographic captured in your gallery. And much more things that you could see. Been this very far. But still got no definition for love. Like the real definition that I could share.  Been living my moments the whole time. Feels like some people would wonder about my love situations. Lol. But if you really know me. I’m that type of person that so lazy to talk about the serious thing. Lol. Idk. Like I’m not that type sharing person. But if it's about you. I wanna talk much. I wanna share much stories. Though I doubt that I would do it or not if you actually showing up.  As a thinke...

Actually we met by coincidence, For more clear it’s me that accidently saw you Your hi for greeting was a word that I didn’t hear But your existence is one of happiness that still being happen on me Your goodbye was a thing that I saw much But your existence is one of lesson that I couldn’t ignore I watched you, million much times Its been talking to me,  to just stay with you and only for you . - It might be sound out of topic from the words above. But I wanna say it.   So much honest, I’ve been much curious how every thing in this world works. I mean. How a small thing for a person could be that special and precious.  You know, my daily. Like I’ve been into some things such as Kpop if you wouldn’t mind I mentioned it. Then you know, to me its feels actually like I’m learning something. Like kinda doing study or having a subject to learn in class. Something like that. The process sometimes feels kinda bored, kinda fun and kinda sad or anything. I know but yeah, if I have...

... I love being in silence on my own. Its my thing. Right before and even after you came that’s my absolute thing. I’m living a life, right? I’m not doing some melo drama or something about love that kinda sad or might be miserable. Let’s not talk about my first. But, love is kinda still mysterious to me. Its belong to time in this universe. I mean so relative. So we are. Okay. Just saying that I’m not that so easily to trust people. I mean because they could be relative, even I might trust some. But, saying about love. I kinda don’t wanna if it could lead me into something that might waking up my pieces again. Maybe. ‘Cuz when the expectations and wishes kinda high. I would be fall deep down. Then, I would get nothing than getting hurt by my own. And from that, I actually wouldn’t dare to blame others. So the choice is, rather than I’m hurting myself I would choose to never hoping on it anymore. But you know, my mind and heart at a dynamic situations when its about love. They are try...

When I was young, I used to never thought about the others. Such as their thoughts about life, or maybe their views about me. I mean I wouldn’t care any of that. I would focus on my self that doing the thing that I really want. I would walk along in the path that I choose. I would never let their words to brought me in a dark hole. I would never let my minds had to think twice about what they meant. I would never care any of that. Now, I realizing how I shape my self to become the version of myself by the other’s touch. I mean, forget about the bads. But when its come to words. I got my thoughts are travelling around. Trying hard to understand what they meant, what they really wanna say to me. Then, I find myself trying hard, for everything, actually. I’m happy when someone talk about how’s their thoughts about me. Because it could help me try to find a way to observe me more, then try to be better. I mean I’m not that good, but I can try for a thing, really. I love people. I do. I res...

About me and you, In the space we ever in and in much space you never in Instead, I got a whole of love a whole of us and a whole of me that was hiding I don't want you to be my lesson, Though I learn a lot through you With or without you, I might continue its page Happy to know you, and  I'd be over the moon if you come back.                         - yourbear

We were foreigners in somebody’s village We were once come, for doing a thing then in the end we were done nothing We were met by time, and apart by time We were near by distance, and afar by distance We were nothing by first, and still nothing by the end You were had a visit, also me You were took a walk, also me We were never say hi, neither the goodbye How all of the sentences comes and never leave me, when we weren’t actually together? We were met at somebody’s village, Now we are just nobody for each other.                        - yourbear