Bear's Diary

Won't always by your side whenever you need Won't always be company when you're down, Even won't always be company when you're truly happy I'm not that spontaneous, I'm not that 24/7 person, I'm not that always around or side by side Would like to apologize, even I have said it several times Sorry, totally sorry. "selfish" just crossed my head, hmm, maybe you can call me that by this hour Again, sorry. Sorry that I couldn't be by your side every time you need a friend.                      - yourfriend

Still see some of my rough phrases? Still got nothing from my messy poems and paragraphs? Still not understanding the signs from my hidden messages? At least I thought,  You'll see something new, afar from your previous pov afar from what you previously imagined No wonder would you like to call me what after all of this, Just writing as much as mind wants Doing hard? I did and still do Just sometimes its wanna a transparant talk Tell me, What would a great poetry look like?  What would a great paragraph look like? I'll try Fortunately, I thought that Your existence is something that awakens up my art Your existence is something that supports me to playing around with words I'll try for the next of my writing thing Wait for me,  'till my words have finally been found  and its meaning is within reach by you.                       - yourbear

I'm around, at the place that need to be find I'm around, in the same road you've been walking on They say it's just the matter of time 'Till we meet each other If only we meant to be There are lot of differences between us, But I'm sure we will find some similar things If only we meant to be They say it's just the matter of time, and my heart say so Time will answer me, answer about us We'll really find each other, If only we really meant to be Meant to be each other own.                     - yourbear

I put you behind, behind all the must that really matter for me I put you behind, behind my worries about tomorrow I put you behind, behind there, at all the memories when we're in one page Wanna say an apologize, here To you The only thing about you that I could do is, Putting you in my illusion You could do everything for me there, You could talk much topics there, We could be each other hands, ears, and eyes We could be each other tears and smile Wanna ask if you okay with that or not, here And saying, that I couldn't put you first this time.                      - yourbear

Being a lover and in a relationship aren't yet in my dictionary  Still there are couple things that really need me, and matter more for Don't asking for the reasons behind, Don't be wondering around, Don't questioning all of my thing Often say that "much things in this world are having their own time to be happening" So, Its also same for this kind of my case  Even ever at one fine day,  I really hoping that I would be a good lover for someone Just then,  after I complete my must.                        - yourbear

Someone ever said to me, there are things that people really hard to say " Help, Sorry, and Thanks ". So, please pardon me and I hope you understand that I try to apply those words. Even you might hear them multiple times.                     - yourbear

I thought you were just passing by, Like the wind that flying between the air Like the rain that pouring in a season Like a song that sounding somewhere But since first you still here, Like the water that flowing through the river Like the sky that never leaving the land Like favorite songs that crossing in mind You still stay here,  and I don't know, because I thought you were gone that day Like a leaf that left the tree, I thought you were like that Like a book from someone's favorite, I hope you could be like that. And you here, Telling me more for all the things I looking for, Reading me an amazing stories, Helping me to live a life, Supporting me to fill page by pages in each chapter that will be written You stay here, are something that I've to thankful for.                      - yourbear

Seiring berjalannya waktu, aku pikir perubahan adalah hal yang dengan mudah aku jumpai. Namun kenyataannya diri tetap sama. Masih nyaman dengan dunianya, dan enggan bercengkrama.  Perihal yang sudah lalu. Tetap saja hanya sebatas nasehat yang sekelibat, tanpa minat realisasi.  Ratusan maaf yang terlontar, mungkin tak pernah bisa menebusnya. Ribuan terima kasih pun mungkin tak pernah terdengar tulus untukmu. I'm done doing my best for the past. And I'll do to try that for the next days ahead too. Hoping you still by my side for the better version of me.  Its kinda hard for doing things that I want, so much problems and challenges are taken a part in every chance. Hoping you still have patience to face me. Hoping you still have much words and advices for me. Hoping you would also help me to find the better version of me.    A change in good ways are something that I always adore and dream of to be.                   ...

How can I'm not reply her when she's always naturally kind towards me How can I'm not thinking of her when she has 24/7 each day to worry about me How can I'm not loving her back when she already do since the first day of my life Words that have been said are still not enough Even more more words that I will say are still not enough though I wish I could make your life easy and beautiful Field full of blooming flowers, Heart full of loving things Knewing that I wouldn't say these kind of phrase,  So here it is My kind of letter to you, Amazing person that I know when I first seeing the world                      - your...

by writing, I'm done talking about what's left by writing, I'm done put so much thoughts before its actually be written by writing, I wish someone could read me from its phrases, paragraphs, or poems by writing, I knew that you still want me to talk by writing, sometimes its a plan I make before I already really wanna speak by writing, you'll see me differently from what you usually know by writing, I always find a fun and excitements, for more topics and chapters by writing, I'm telling what I wanna tell by writing, I hope you'll find me really soon                    - yourbear

Hi, come in Have a short concert time Doing lypsinc and a little move, Flying in thoughts and memories,  Releasing something bad Morning will come,  Days will continue,  even the path is already taken It's fine if you think you just live for today and clueless about tomorrow Just enjoy the playlists that you set this time , because mind is on its way to do their job again, even about tomorrow                    - yourbear