Bear's Diary

We were once doing a thing. Each of us once had a role. You as my interviewee, and I was an interviewer. Perhaps, in the beginning that role was switched. Perhaps, in the beginning you were doing what you believe to do. Perhaps, in the beginning you had a reason for doing so. Perhaps, in the end you also had a reason for doing so. As a writer and a thinker, it’s kinda tough to let yourself writing based on your thoughts. Surely it doesn’t mean that I always hate my thoughts though. From here, I guess you’ll hate me. By the words that I choose to write. By the topics that I choose to discuss. By the stories that I choose to tell. By the meaning of the writing that I hope you to interpret it the same as me. Whatever roles that we ever had before. It might not be that necessary. As long as we are still fine enough to stand on each of our feet. As long as we still choose to live in. Hoping that you’ll take something good about me and forget all of the bads. Surely I have always been trying...

One of your things that I love, that it’s pretty and can’t be ignored Had ever manifesting when we have time to meet, I could imagine that I would die happily just staring at it You might have no idea how I see you,  my point of view of you I love those eyes of yours,  whatever something’s hiding inside it. If only I could say what I always wanted and what I felt towards you face to face, I wonder how you would react to me I might write you a poetry anthology book, ‘cuz just one piece of it isn’t enough to describe something about you.

Just say what you wanna say My willingness to listen’s still there for you I know what I said to you I know what I did to you I couldn’t give you peace I couldn’t be your home Perhaps you only wanted to be loved, Didn’t mean to love someone Our opinions were clashing down Our opinions were never the same Never regret we ever knew each other, It’s fine though, I guess this thing was never wanna be ours I’m sorry for everything that happened caused by me I’m sorry that I did you badly You can be my Mr. Right, You can blame me Just say and do what you want, You can blame me

Wanna text you for the last time Wanna call you for the last time But I’m afraid that I wouldn’t let you go again You were an unexpected someone I had never wished for You were an unexpected truth I had never wished for You were an unexpected peace I had always wished for You accepted me for whom I am You never once forced me for things I don’t want You, the kindest soul I ever knew The silent you, perhaps that was how you control yourself The silent you, perhaps that was how you protect me The silent you, perhaps that was how you love someone I often misunderstood you, angry at you For the way you treated me Perhaps maybe that was how I wanted to be treated when I didn’t accept being shouted at I once said that I wish I could read your mind, that was true  To know everything that you don’t wanna talk To know everything that you find it hard to say Don’t blame yourself about something that happened between us Don’t hurt yourself again, or Don’t let me hurt you, please You were...

You were never mine, I was never yours I believe what it was, I believe it was love I believe what I showed, I believe you take it for what it was I believe you believed me, For whatever it was I called you or myself Is it what you call a hopeless romantic? Is it how I see myself when I’m with you? I called myself yours, When the truth I was never been Wanna be yours, When you never wanna be mine I was never yours, I seriously never yours.

You once said that you would listen to a song that related to you…….. I’m listening to some songs in your playlist Reading the lyrics and searching up the meaning behind I kinda got my pov that may be different from yours Your playlist’s so sad to my ears Then make me wonder how you feel when listening to it Do you feel sad too? or Are you always sad? Please don’t be If maybe some songs were about and for me, or even for someone that you really wanted to meet I would answer all, I could be that someone for you Then you’ll feel that I’m already all in for you If only you had said what you wanted when we were still in touch I would give you everything, I could give you a whole world if you wanted it to Then you’ll feel that I’m already all in for you The timing was so bad, right? It was bad for us, right? I might wanna change your playlist That’s so far from sadness  That would make you want to fly and touch the sky For the beautiful it is to be happy I might wanna change your playli...

Can anyone tell me how to take you back? The night feels scary How to bring you back? I need you more than i miss you I feel like i lost my faith without you Have no one, just my self Can you just take me with you? I don’t care wherever it would be as long as it with you, i’ll be fine Where are you? Come to me Where are you? I’m looking for you Where are you? Tell me how to take you back, please Tell me how to take you home, right here Where are you? I’ll come to you Where are you? I would like to take you home, with me.

don’t wanna call it another heartbreak as long as it by you  don’t wanna call it wound or pain as long as it relate to you whatever it is called, as long as it has you in it i’ll be fine enough to face it don’t take it away it’s mine to have as long as it has you in it.