Bear's Diary

I guess its been many years, since I’ve been having this kind of feeling I guess you still clueless, when I’ve been diving this deep The moments without you are a place for savings, for longing I’m not always fine, but always try You know, its a bit comfort to me I mean, when you had much bad days, but because you have someone in your heart like holding you in so tight, then its makes you believe that it’ll be fine You know, I am such a receiver when its come to people So sometimes I wonder what something that I could give to you when you’ve been giving me much I try organize all my thoughts, so it could be hear more clearer than the words I ever said Even I guess I might spent the most of time for preparing those I’m always at that curious thing if its the things about you Like talking about prediction that far away from my horoscope Like seeing the view that already blocked from my sight Today is the last day of this year, And I don’t know what is my wish and hope for writing this Ma...

So often collapse happens Between the part that so invisible It is just what it is, At a part that only I could feel Wish that someone would automatically know Beside the talks that always sound silent. The world you livin’ seems so interestin' , then makes me wonder Am I could be there too?                       - yourbear

....... You wouldn’t left me alone, right? How’s your days going? I just have a thought few seconds ago What if I accepted him that come to me first before you? Am I could find happiness that would be similar  when I remembering our moments? I do have a lot imaginations, but about someone except you I couldn’t do any further than I do towards us but when it’s about you, I do putting some limit that I doubt so much You still there, living in a hole inside mind You still there, living in almost the whole heart Am I could reach you? Are we could rebuild moments that I missed for so long? I hope that you would be okay that I still called you million much times in poems and paragraphs. Other than the words above, nothing I could say except  I miss you so bad.                                                          - yourbear

Never so far for imagining how your thought about me 'Cuz I’m so kinda busy to observe myself  But, refusing all of your requests Its always got me think That the day would might come, when you all might be tired with all of this damn thing about me Actually I’m afraid that I would be left alone  Other than apologize,  I’m  not preparing for anything Because the sentence that refer for "I will so soon fix all of the things about me" is a thing that I hardly could promised Even so shame that I hope you all will stay longer with me But, for the days ahead I think I’m ready for prepare to accept all about us that would might happen But, I really hope you all will stay Rather than knowing new people I absolutely choose for making up with the old ones.                    

Hear me out, at this hour... I'll tell you.... What if the world would eliminate me? I watched some movies, some about  singers and writers if I'm not wrong And at the last minutes of that movies, those people are gone like forever Then it got me think,  What if I become one of that people in those movies? What if you might know all the truth when I really gone? Gone far away that off from your life, and so far from your dimension What if the world is the only place for me to write and not other than that? Then it would eliminate me like a plan that had been drafted for so long Please, help me to throw all of this bad thoughts Please, come to me Please save me. I'll be more honest, Actually I'm so afraid for writing this topic But here I am, At the last line and the pre-ending Please, save me.                        - yourbear

Saw a flower in a green garden dazzling in my eyes, and unforgettable in my hands But I didn't brought it home I keep walking along the way  'till I got here Then I start reminiscing that flower I ever held with a hand that easily shaken by time It could be that I regret for didn't brought it up here, But the beauty of it, is something that could possibly poisoned me.                                                         - yourbear

I love burger, 'cuz prefer fast food I love vintage, 'cuz prefer its color  I love green color, but dislike matcha I love the rain after drought, I love the sunset before the night I love much songs 'till I couldn't count I love much melody between the songs I listens I love the smell of new books that I just bought I love some words, paragraphs and poems that somewhere caught my attention. I do love writing, and here's the prove After all the words that had been written, Now I wanna share many things that got me enchanted and feeling something that sometimes hard to define.                                                      - yourbear

..... Tell me the reason what makes you stand still so bright today? The experience of the past? or The future that you're hope for? Obviously I have no vision yet for tomorrow I love writing and reading,  when you love talking to people and I love you, when you  love yourself more What's your opinion about holding in tight the reminiscence,  when you're enjoying present time so much? So curious 'bout our differences  that I imagine could find the common things in between I'm living life with the moon, when you living yours with the shiny sun Sitting alone in my room and staring at phone,  then turn on the playlist are my absolute things. In the world that full of uncertainty, I wish I could give you a word that you can hold when you start doubting it. I'm so so poetic when a simile never come to yours. When you believe around you start getting dark,  just remember me through the air that you breathe and  inside your memories that maybe start getting f...