honesty

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I know our distance isn't that too long to be reach by each of us. But my feelings are so inconstant, confusing me at every chance.

Honestly, I just have monologue before writing here. But, I forget about what I said. Really. Wherease I would like to tell you those.

So many unspoken and unwriting things when it comes to you. I remember what Jane Austin said, " Sometimes I have to kept my feelings to my self, because I could find no language to describe them in ". That's really my type of fav quotes. I'm totally agree. But on the other hand, I think that by this time being I'm still trying to figure it out what language that can be use to express about my feelings towards you. I think because I don't want to keep it silent and hiding anymore. I think that I really want to be find by you.

I'm not playing hide and seek, 
but sometimes it feels like there's someone that looking for me
Is that you? or 
Is it just my feeling, again?

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Is it funny? Isn't it?
I mean about my thoughts
You would do no laugh about this, right?

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I won't cry, neither will feeling sad
I'll smile wider than before
even just by thinking about you.


                        - yourbear

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