but, and always but

I seriously wanna hold you tightly

Before I’m totally ready to face the real world later

But, it’s the same as I ever said before

as I drew a line and closed the door for somebody

Now I’m at the edge,

between a hoper and a doer about the world

between wanna be a lover and a peace seeker 

I loved you and still loving you,

But I shouldn’t be selfish towards my people

I mean by being fully invested on you

Though you might never know, that you are always my something in between

That I wouldn’t forget because I might don’t want to

….

But, and always but

I will say I need you more 

for every situations I’m in

for every problems I’m facing

But, and always but

For every thing that I keep in line with lock behind the wall

It’s need you to come and crushed the padlock then open it

But, and always but

I will put your name in my prayer

I will put you in the midnight sky

I will put us between the rainfall

But, and maybe always but

I will say I love you

though I will say I hate you,

I will say I love you

though I will just remember it as it is

But, and always but

Please remember that “thank you” would often come after you

Because you are worthy, and

I want to believe that I worthy too,

through all of this.