selfish or lying

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i was talking too much

i was doing too much


i guess i said a big lie to you


i said i care and worry, maybe not because of you

but because of my self, because i want you to be fine enough and spend time with me


i said i don’t want you to be alone, maybe not because of you

but because of my self, that so real afraid to be alone


if all of those are lies, then is it still love?

or i lied to my self that i never realize before?

or is it just selfish thing that i always have?

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